Securely Insecure
From the moment a child realizes someone is watching, they are eager for the spotlight. Scroll through facebook, or glance at instagram and you are sure to get a glimpse of your “friends” latest spotlight moments. We are born with this inner craving to be accepted, applauded, and praised by anyone who is watching. It feels good to know that what we do is approved of. We check our likes and shares, our favorites, and retweets to see who approves. As I considered starting a blog I was hindered by thoughts of people who might not agree with everything I say or do. But why? Why am I so afraid of what people will think or interpret my words to be? Am I selfish? Am I insecure? Am I afraid of being critiqued? The answer is, yes. As I scroll through my friends spotlight moments I am often deceived, thinking that they have it all together, and I am left wondering why I seem to be falling apart.
Comparisons breed and feed insecurity.
…but they measuring themselves by themselves and comparing themselves among themselves, are not wise. II Corinthians 10:12b
Trying to please others binds and bonds you to your insecurities.
The fear of man bringeth a snare: but whoso putteth his trust in the Lord shall be made safe. Proverbs 29:25
Although the world will try to sell self made ways to become a stronger person, I have found that my only lasting security is from an almighty God that pours out grace that I do not deserve when I am a weak and wilting vessel trying to survive. My insecurities, my selfishness, my foolish thoughts of being afraid of what others may think either capture and captivate me, or drive me closer to my Savior, my provider, my strong tower, my hiding place, my comforter, my healer, my forgiver, my father, my friend. I am insecure and I need security. I am selfish and I need deliverance. I am afraid and I need a strong friend to tell me, it’s ok. I am thankful to know Jesus.
Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me. John 14:6
I cannot positively think my way into security or work my way to super woman status. I must trust in Jesus. That’s where I can be secure in my insecurities. If you are feeling like you can never measure up, rather than wilting under the pressure, or being bound by the deceptive bond that you will never be good enough, allow Jesus to secure you in your insecurity. Once the snare of insecurity is loosed, the sweet arms of Jesus will feel stronger than anything you have ever experienced.
When I said, My foot slippeth; thy mercy, O Lord, held me up. Psalm 94:18
Let go and let him hold you.
Securely Insecure,
Micah